Tuesday, 8th January 2019

My dreams for the past few weeks:

30th December 2018
Going for an evaluation at a mental ward, feeling afraid I wouldn’t be allowed back out
I’m lucky cause I don’t earn enough to pay, neither does mum so I’d be getting a grant for it

A house surrounded by green, small town village
A gate with a large animal kinda like a dog sized owl, open the gate to let it out, it goes off into the dark and then 3 dogs come out chasing something, not sure if it’s alive or dead. Run to the house away from the dogs, the dogs can come through the railings and gates, what’s the use of these gates
Can find the key to the new place, feel all pockets but nothing
Don’t want dogs to attack me

A girl two guys a brother and mother a father
She’s had enough and is finally leaving with her boyfriend
They all say how rubbish the dad is and how much he’s held them all back

There’s a cupboard and I keep going back to look at these photos
They’re staged but also real

There’s acting and double crossing going on but I’m not sure who’s the good guys and who’s the bad guys

To get into the house we manage to sneak into one part and the girl is using an aerial to create some kind of signal the others (men in suits in a high tech room) can hone in on


27th December 2018
A party in my own house
I’m in my bed
Feeling hungry so I go get some cereal and something else, but am heating the milk for some reason
Some guy is eating the turkey in the fridge, obviously high, ask him how he’s enjoying the party he says a lot, that people are teaching him lots of different things. I tell him to hold back on the turkey cause he’s eating 5 legs, I cover the turkey and close the fridge. He seems a little put out but seems to accept it enough.
Everyone’s on a beach and a guy wants to leave the same time I do and the leave the others there, I say sure. But as we go to leave people, especially a girl, like one of his girlfriends, asks him where he’s going and stops him from taking the towel.
Whilst they’re play fighting I fold the towel ready for a quick get away
I hear him half jokingly kinda blame me for leaving early but he’s not being mean
Everyone decides to leave
As he comes up to me I say with a smile ‘hey, don’t don’t blame me! I’m happy to leave alone’
Someone says about some place where we could go get a blow job, I say I don’t know anywhere in town. I’m in that quietly confident mood where I don’t say much but I make clear points, don’t really make much conversation but obviously also don’t care if I’m being matter of fact and to the point

I’m in a plane
Wait. There was a flickering tv screen linked up to a couple of bits of old electrical equipment, something that should be able to keep it or print it or something. I turn the tv off via turning the vhs off which has this image on pause. Some kind of wall maybe

I’m in a plane, like a computer simulator, within a game, I’m not very good at flying. I crash and start again
There are people and I start shooting at them, accidentally then on purpose killing them with my rotors (?? Plane) and guns
They start shooting back and are similar to nazis so I don’t mind killing them
I’m on a roof being a sniper and shooting a couple of them but they don’t all die. I keep shooting but the bullets don’t seem to work. They come towards me, I sit, meditate my way out of the world, looks like I take a pill when I haven’t
Some girl appears and gives me her ring to wear. It fits on my 2nd finger on the left hand
I disappear but then am slightly worried as I kinda come back and can’t quite leave the place and don’t want to be caught
But then I am on a train, a small carriage

26th November 2018

Dreamed of being in a bed
There was a magicians business card there which seemed blank but if you tilted it correctly under light it would show that symbols were hidden into the card
Each symbol representing a certain power or function
After rubbing my fingers over them I had a went to turn off my tv and pointed my phone at it expecting nothing but as I did so it fast forwarded the video
(A film was playing, starting with two Arnies like brothers before flashing back or forward into a corresponding storyline
I was freaked out but also thought it was very cool that I could do it
I tried lifting and not lifting other things like a lamp etc but it didn’t work
It felt like the tool and symbol were connected and you needed both to work, wrong tool (phone pointed to the tv like a wand) or wrong symbol (the last one my finger had fallen on) would produce no results
Learning the language and the tools was what helped prevent mistakes from happening
I felt scared but also excited
The tv was freaky
Flickering the video image in black and white as if bleeding from the wrong channel



26th December 2018

Weird anteater type animal, lobster colour shell, long spindly neck, two dang front teeth. Would be defensive by walking backwards, protecting its softer front side, stands upright

26th November 2018 #2

Me and A friend were in a room like a newsagents or shop on the beach side
There were what were like civil war bullets and then these shots that were quite large and my friend found it funny to keep throwing it at me
I didn’t like it and they really hurt when they hit you

26th 2018 #3

Dreamed of being in a house, similar to Alberta street (Kennington), having a shower with clothes on
Before that filming a scene in a kitchen

Before that I had a one seater car like really small,


25th December 2018

Nathanial Hawthorne

Extreme tv show, people falling, fights, anger, fearful

Two guys at a stall selling vitamins which turns out were cut with heroin
3 girls come in, one bloody faced and shoots one of them

I run out the building
Feels like New Zealand
1 guy in a small car/buggy gets out an d runs in
I walk calmly down the street pretending I weren’t there
Pick up journalist friends
Tell them the story


14th November 2018

Waiting for a train at Waterloo, with George.
Trains keep disappearing from the boards before we can get one.
A line of hot stewardesses pass by and I’m on platform 8 which is the wrong one. They have lots of trolleys
A pub quiz starts on that platform as if a pub
Bump into Ray the window cleaner
George is coming back with a beer and a red wine. I’ve just spend my last £20 on this pub quiz deposit so now don’t have money for the train
The next train is on the board but I know we’re going to miss it. It disappears and the next one isn’t for a long time, a bit anxious.
Ray says should we be drinking, we might get caught. Offer him the drinks but take the offer back and head off.
On a train, a couple sits behind a bit and they something loudly and Alice talks about it and I reply unaware loudly too so she is embarrassed and asks we don’t talk about it as they would’ve heard. I say it doesn’t matter
The man passes and looks like he’s had plastic surgery

A field, like a film. A flashback with Kevin Costner
The fields had been soaked in gasoline and all the workers/slaves working the land were caught on fire and were burning, but Kevin Costner had run towards the sprinklers and dove behind them just as the flames started, he felt guilty for watching them knowing there was nothing he could do but felt traumatized for seeing them and hearing the screams
A flashforward/backward to a young Elijah Wood and his brother (from radio flyer) and the brother is not yet a nazi, says they would free the slaves one day, mother is only just cutting the peconias


11th November 18

I was running away but kept she kept following
Eventually she caught up and from a distance told me about the skin condition she had, and I could see the pigment being different on her face until her face became distorted and unlike her old one. It made me sad, she was regretful but also strong and accepting

6th November 2018

Dreamed I found a Stanley Kubrick collection on vhs and bought it for £8
Bought a burger from Macdonalds which was all fancy food plus a Big Mac but dropped my burger on the floor. 4 kids sitting around and started bullying me.
Went to one of their houses as apparently I was staying there but we hadn’t met yet and I drank a load of orange juice as payback (?!)


31st October 2018

Went to some kind of game arcade, put in a couple of coins and got back some credits but didn’t know how to claim them or what they were for. I wanted to win money and wanted to put a pack of 20ps in another machine but my friends forced me to leave
The screens were odd and interactive, my lucid dreaming felt more like an interaction with this other world as if I were half asleep and half awake
During random half awake moments I could feel my body visiting other peoples


6th October 2018

Undo panel and mess around with the inside
Changes the outside world
Being against authority
Rebel
Trying to fix society and change the rules

‘Grease bit’

Face red and swollen needed anti histamine

On a train/bus going to the back
With backpack and laptop