Sunday, 27th September 2020

Monday, 7th September 2020

I have to say I’m not too happy with the way the world is going. Lots more hate than love or forgiveness. Whatever the reason for your anger towards the world you must first at least look at yourself, and as much history as you can stand to learn.

This is not new and it has all happened before.

Find a new way to make change happen, abuse and peer pressure will never be a good way to convince something is right, no matter how many people fall for it

Friday, 29th May 2020

The Corbett Report - Bill Gates

Monday, 18th May 2020

My old room - 2012 > 2017

Thursday, 19th March 2020

Monday, 17th February 2020
 

Second Hand Stories

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COASTGUARDS

There’s a storm living in my head
Coastguards all around me
Sources say that it won’t break
But there’s pieces all around me
Shapes are spread upon the water
Facing a starlit sky
Try to put it all together
In the end I don’t know why
As I scramble into my bed
In the early morning light
I wake up early for the next day
Just longing for the night
With hours lost inbetween them
This living is a fight
I’m not here
As I see the arctic night
Shine over hurricane sea
I am sleeping in my bed
Listening to sounds come from my tv
And I am not really here
I'm just living in my own world
And I am not really here
I’m just staying in from the cold

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AN AMERICAN TALE
 
Camel lights
Bought in two thousand and seven
Nights spent in New York
I’m twenty five inside squares
United states affairs
New Orleans two thousand and eight
Auras read
I’m blue apparently Brian says
Whisky drinks and strangers eyes
Came from the farm
Three months inside Christiandom
And movie nights on Saturdays in love
Pulling weeds from carparks in gloves
Open mic at the gazebo
Brother Mike introduced me to her
My first wife to be left me on my flight
Croydon streets lived in two thousand and ten
Years on in Twickenham I sit and reminisce
My time there still exists somewhere

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SOMEWHERE ELSE

It’s all about to end
I’ll say goodbye my friend
I’m going somewhere new
Someplace without you
I don’t ever wanna let you
Think I’m no one without you
Have you ever even seen me?
Ever cared to see me truly?
I don’t wanna shout
You can find your own way out
Extrapolate myself
Pretend I’m somewhere else
Had enough of trying hard for
A situation I won’t die for
Had enough of being round you
Had enough of thinking of you
Why am I so hard to speak to?
Do you even care enough to?
Why am I asking so much of you?
Why can’t I just be normal?
You’re not all to blame
I’m probably just the same
It’s all happened before
Learning so slow is a bore
They always thought worse of me
Couldn’t stand to be around me
Didn’t care if I was missing
Didn’t care I needed fixing
Whatever it was they were thinking
Wasn’t in communicating
Maybe they were never caring
Maybe I’m just oversharing
But it is near the end
There’s nothing to defend
Our walls have built ourselves

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CLUB NIGHT

Come to this club every night alone
Looking for someone to take me home
Looking for somewhere to feel welcome
Get on the stage and sing a song
My hair is blue, I look at my feet
I know this is no way to meet
But can you just see through this body
I feel the emptiness spread out of me
And turn into a see-through disease
Engulfing everything I mean
Engulfing everything but me
My words come out like little ghosts
Tapping at the window host
Tapping very silently
In trails of white refinery
We all come back tomorrow
To do the dance alone
Sometimes its hard to follow
The steps to take you home
Waiting by the entrance door
I feel we've met somewhere before
It's feeling so familiar
With hand in hand interiors
Thought you were a girl and not a guy
My love was real but had to die
Until the next reality
You'll live here right inside of me
And we all come back tomorrow
To do the dance alone
Sometimes its hard to follow
The steps that take you home

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THE LIVES I USED TO LIVE IN

I saw you yesterday but we didn't know each other
I can't believe we stayed in a bed with one another
Is this how it is when you start to stop kissing?

I guess I'm the odd one out, though I'm the only one in
As people disappear from the lives I used to live in
And carry on walking till we become nothing

Is it better to be held or to be forgotten
Hear second hand stories from the worlds that I have died in
To burn all the bridges and wade in the water?

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HEADLIGHTS

I lie above my fallen teeth and crouch under a bed beneath
Cupboards that begin to creak as soon as I start to sleep
I wake and call you on the phone, cables wrapped around my bones
Wires begin coupling to notify the signalmen
Behind bars they sit and wait, sticks balancing empty plates
Someone tunes the radio to a song that we both know
As I sing you start to dance, a hollow victory romance
With nothing we decide to drive, with nothing we can survive
Leaving town and taking notes, ghosts living in empty coats
Keeping warm as prison walls tumble down like waterfalls
Tales and cities, flicking screens lighting up like gasoline
And as the car is turning slow I roll down the window
Hearing words come from the street, the wind's telling me a secret
Driving blindly into cars, headlights looking like the stars
Sirens calling in the street, stopping signs is where we meet
In silence we begin to run, off before the starting gun
Head along the waters edge, jumping from the window ledge
Tied up fall into the sea, drowning just like Houdini
Underwater we can fly, up above the surface lies
As the salt turns into our skin, we disappear and merge again

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PIECE BY PIECE

In the end we're not so innocent
Time divides us piece by piece
Cuts us until we don't bleed at all

I hear a voice singing me a song
Sirens calling out my name
But I won't leave here
I'll finish the game

Till the end I will follow you
Though I've never seen your face
I can feel you pull me to you
And I will trust you even if I lie

Monday, 6th January 2020

A pod in the sea
Single occupancy, or deluxe dual occupancy
Unbreakable glass window in front
Lying down, controls to left and right, retractable steering wheel
Water purification system letting in drips of water into a tank and filtering from salt to freshwater
Pod can go vertical and rotate so you can be upright whilst diving below or face down for scuba like experience
On the surface the window can be pushed out and retracted and be convertible, for calm seas and looking at the stars at night (lovely views in the middle of the ocean in total darkness)
Indestructible to smashing against rocks or teeth of sharks etc
Womblike feeling of being totally safe in the middle of the sea, stormy waves crashing over you 
Fixable motor parts and homing distress beacon GPS and autopilot for traveling whilst asleep, avoiding boats and other hazards