Monday, 21st January 2019

(Disclaimer: From my own experiences and no-one elses: as all this blog is)

The adult psychotic split could be explained from the difference of a childs-like acceptance of all things, ie. a child's experience is 'what is' and not 'what is not'.

All things that happen as a child are just accepted into your reality, but when you become more aware and have certain things embedded into your ego consciousness then you have a 'what is' and a 'what is not' reaction to new experiences.

So now I am older, each new experience is in battle with the many previous years' experience, and these can cause disharmony within my brain, there can be a 'free' me which is open to everything and also a 'challenging' me which questions any new experience and views it as a threat.

Therefore, becoming unhinged or scared of a new experience is more likely to have a stronger impact because there are more 'me's' trying to understand it.

What needs to be remembered is that a child's acceptance is one of the most beautiful things we can have and so any troubles amounted from new experiences resulting in a certain kind of psychosis is actually a positive and welcoming thing, even if what it makes us feel is terrified.

A child wouldn't be terrified, it would just see what was. Time and experience gives us a certain view of what should be, and what shouldn't be, and this helps us grow in many ways but then can also harm us from growing in others.