Wednesday 23 March 2016

Wednesday, 23rd March 2016

"You are an example to the world". Our lives are faster than the life of the world but we each are examples of how it could go. We all have multiple voices and characters within us, the trick is to get them discussing things and being a unit, that is what our job is is, to be a spokesperson to many.
Different voices come in at different times and we are filters and deciders to these. These are our own political systems.
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That's all people are anyway, particles. We flit from one state to the next, calm and subdued to vibrating and excited. The overall state is a combination of all our different parts. So the world changes from state to state
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I ask myself who I am, and it tells me: "I am all of you"
"You" being every voice I've ever heard and every person I've ever learned from. Maybe people change as much as you change people.
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Is it possible that the self is just a spiraling mass of ideas personified into form and that each person you meet is just another person whose body owes itself to the gravitational force of the soul? And what if the soul is just the leader you have all designated as being so?
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The whole of your body talks to itself all of the time but it is usually only when you are crazy or high do you actually hear these voices talking
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Imagine this:
A boy who has always been somewhat sound of mind, all of the supposedly crazy things he's ever done have been meticulously planned out, even if ill-advised, and never has his mind left him completely. What happens when part of his mind tells the other part of his mind that someone is behind him, and the first side tells his body to tense up and fear himself, that there actually was something behind him (truly knowing there wasn't). What happens when the forefront runner of your sanity is challenged by another part of your brain and your senses?
I admire all that have to go through that. Those people have challenged every part of their being. But it is important to remember that every voice is worth listening to.
Even if it is the most speechless.
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I love the fact that the last two videos on youtube have had an ad where there is an eye on the banner. Hi guys. Read 1984 much?
I still don't understand how people cannot get that book. I simply don't believe it can be in the top 100 books ever because people are still idiots. Or is it simply post-humourism?
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I feel my world is a world with revolving voices, and I know I am not alone. But here is a part of mine (if I can get him to come back out):

If you want to feel apart of things then don't put on some video where the screen is slightly more black than the last one you looked at, with a picture of someone kneeling in a shallow of warm Maldivian sea, simply turn everything off and try to remember what it was like 3 thousand years ago.
That's probably where your body is.
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"I repressed all of my outside hate into a toddler rage" - me
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"It's ridiculous that going insane is a party trick for you guys.
Genius is just hearing two characters having a conversation between themselves, but to us we had to nearly die, or be outcast from society forever?
For you it's just a drug-induced temporary phase.
Lucky you" - one of the voices in my head
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The term insane could be best describe themselves as those that don't keep themselves held to one idea but that keeps themselves twisting and turning
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I just happen to have a very good head

Tuesday 22 March 2016

Tuesday, 22nd March 2016

Life does it's best to give us a perfect living environment, through billions of stars and planets, through billions of years of evolution, through birth and family and friends, to jobs and socialising and thinking and experiencing. And we without realising it still ask for more.

Music is the thread you can follow, the keys and harmonies of life are all beautiful melodies to keep you in the right direction

Thursday 17 March 2016

Thursday, 17th March 2016

Art must be dead. The mind is a supercomputer and we try to recreate it using our monkey fingers. But by realising you can bypass the translation stage and simply feel the connection and know others are connectd to the same source, that is a higher form of artist.

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What if the mind were simply made up of complex political groups all arguing upon the floor? Should we trust our minds as we do politics? If we self-discriminate more maybe the world would also.
Thursday, 17th March 2016

We, every particle in the universe must, must go through the vibrations of itself, up and down, to the peaks and the depressions, everything must go through this, time and time again, but be reassured that there will always be the better situation and that we all have to go through it at one point or another.
Thursday, 17th March 2016

But I have myself to go back to, time and again it is a haven. It is where I gather my strength to be able to face another day, and when I am restricted from this I lose energy, I become merely mortal and practically dead.
I always thought that all people must have this within them, that they knew that was where the energy came from, but maybe people don't as much as I think they do. If you've never seen or felt something, and nobody conveys it correctly then how would anyone know that something may be missing. I mean this for myself included, how many things are there that I am cutoff and oblivious to? So many I hardly dare count, I know I filter out many social norms, things that help you along in this world, if you want to follow convention. I undoubtedly block off certain emotions of which I may be aware of but cannot fully feel, being slightly android-alien.
But power from within that is a gift to be harnessed. Maybe it is the jewel inside of a box inside a house with a horse and flowers. The storms can't break what's inside the box.

Wednesday 16 March 2016

Wednesday, 16th March 2016

What a life is is a dream created within two peoples minds
But can dreams come back to life?
Wednesday, 16th March 2016

Want to write, want to write, what to write, want to right? want to write, write on to, want to write on to white on to white, write bite kite light bite night
Once to write is once on the right, just look for the man in a sheepskin face, lighting a cigarette on a parking meter and walking down the road, by the toad in the road, goad goad goad at me, toad?
Don't go toad, I'll never forget you toadie. Today is the greatest, bonus at work and a free 2 litre bottle of Old Rosie given by a friend.

Try to correspond sentences, ok, here we go, where are you? I am here, can't you see me? No, it is all very dark here, I only see glowing eyes. Well, then that is probably me. I can see you, my eyes shine upon you.


Tuesday, 15th March 2016

Thoughts in Bed or on the Train
(possibly non-sensical and poorly written)

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In the centre Is the uinverse in which all is held.
The mind acts as a blinking blind to consciousness depdending on your self chosen level
0&1's act as the binary system. So the more open and aware you are affects the perception of time. Aware=long
Unaware=short
Higher dimensions most certainly exist but our minds turn off to them and so we dont remember them

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Paranoia Is associated with awareness because it is going further than most choose too and so has the feeling of going off into the woods alone or rowing ahead of the pack.
The insecurity of not knowing what you may find or bump into makes you anxious

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The anxious child side is always kept back and not allowed out into the world but it is the master of the shell. And so the mind gets tired from operating the machine

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From birth we arr infinite with possibilities but are instantly told stories and was countless movies are depicting different plot lines.
So it is natural enough to assume that we project these stories onto our own lives without really being in the moment at all
All we've done is taken life with its numerous choices and we've limited it into the stories that we already know.
Fewer stories told = more presently making stories

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When I bring my child out which is rare, it often feels like a child at the controls of a highly sophisticated machine, and it feels somewhat like an android would feel as it clumsily attempts to take control of its existence

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As belief in fantasy grows so the world be become more fantastical, spirits or energy or aliens etc. May begin to emerge as the population begins to agree upon one story line.

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The brain splits between high beta waves, aware but nervous and anxious, to theta and delta waves where more dreamlike drifting happens and stories are told to ourselves.
Each thought Is like its own little dream in which our days are cutup using fantasy and awareness of present time.
We tell ourselves stories to pass the time

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The collective dream that we've been living in since the 50's is the screen dream, stories and movies and countless characters that have influenced and infiltrated our selves. As we begin to wake we begin to see the world as something moving instead of something already told.
My relationships have often been archetypal in plot narrative and I have often assumed a defined role

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The 2nd more hidden character is the detached self inside the avatar of persona you have created.
Travelling through the different states of self awareness feels much like a child wandering around streets that look familiar and yet it feels as if youve never really walked them

Monday 14 March 2016

Monday, 14th March 2016

With each life you are another point along the wave, going up and going down. The confusion comes when you are not quite sure if the next life will be as step up or a step down.
We may meet some from past lives along the way, in fact most probably will as we all started at the same time and are all dancing, maybe some slightly quicker and some slightly slower, but we are all on the wave, watching the horizon come up, or just easily see it go down again. But then that is what depression is within life. If you live with depression in life it means you are working on a faster wave length that the slower moving mass wave.
Each person starts at a frequency and there are moments given and chances to take a faster or slower route. How much do you want to experience?
But also what does the majority feel? Because the overall will judge whether we are going towards the trough or the peak.
Add to this the possibility that belief can also affect the wave, so the more people believe it is on the rise, it truly will begin to rise.

Thursday 10 March 2016

Thursday, 10th March 2016

The black hole is the pinnacle of self consumption. It is the furthest extreme of looking inside yourself and having nothing outside to orbit. It is the biggest sun that sees nothing else worthy to follow and so looks inside and drags the entire universe into itself. Only when all things have been absorbed does it finally understand it all and with that completeness it explodes outwards to create something new, an evolution of thought that can only be attained by throwing itself outwards and seeing what happens from doing so.

Wednesday 9 March 2016

Wednesday, 9th March 2016

I wrote this on the train back from Luton Airport on Monday

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An exchange of money for thought

Get paid/dont have to work a job that doesn't need to exist but in place of that the person gets trained and educated in mindfulness/consciousness/positive energy expulsion.

Society is now tangled in a web of keeping people busy and drunk and dizzy just so they don't rise up or be violent or unruly or change society too quickly. A new structure needs to be found but money still rules and too much leisure time has been shown to be unhelpful to a primitive thought process. So education needs to be exchanged for money. Positive thought will create solutions and working together with tolerance instead of arguments and violence
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The idea being that if I had lots of money I would offer a living 'wage' to people who wanted to exchange their path of work to survive-numb themselves to work to survive-never explore other avenues due to having to work to survive-cycle.
Sounds a little like a cult, but here's the thing, people wouldn't 'have' to do it. People could choose to live within our current social structure but those who would be willing to explore other avenues would be given the chance. If they then didn't attend lectures/workshops/do work in their own time, funds would be withdrawn but reinstated if they then at a later date felt as if they would like to rejoin. There would be no grading system or judgement, they effort alone would be the work.

As someone that believes mind does indeed work over matter, that thoughts and conscious thought actually manifests itself into actual physical realities I feel that this is something that everyone should be offered. If a thousand people were all working towards a common goal (to educate, to think and to radiate positive calm energy) then this would have an actual impact on the world around them.
The beauty of the idea is that it is all just a self-exploration, not something that needs to then be conveyed to the outside world but that I believe would impact change in a positive way.

To fight systems is still fighting no matter how good the cause may seem to be. The first step is still a rebellion against something, but what I feel needs to be addressed is an alternative to this, something that begins from within and works itself to without.

People would still have choice, it would mainly have value as a social experiment, to see whether giving people a way out of an outdated restricted structure could actually help gradually (and it has to be gradual) change the way that people feel they need to exist to survive.

That thoughts can be exchanged for monetary value