Thursday, 12th September 2019

I had an idea a while ago that each person is it's own mathematical equation which just gets more complex as experience (time) goes on but that there are only a limited amount of answers per equation

born, 2 parents, no siblings, positive school experience, parent died, lost house etc etc
(a+b2+0s+s(+)+bminus1+hminus etc etc)
verses
born,  1 parent, 2 sisters, negative school experience, positive step parent, addition of financial security etc etc
(a+b1+2s+s(-)+bplus1+£plus etc etc)

But that if you far enough into the specifics of each personality and each experience and the mindset of the subject that there must be a thread that connects it into a more simplistic equation, that the gravity of the people around them can pull them into other mindsets and influence the outcomes of said subject.
But also that if you include 'self-awareness' into the equation that it can change much of (but not all) the equation. Presently we may call this self reflection or therapy, or indeed any moment that makes you reflect and think on previous moments that may have influenced your present state

Within 'self-reflection' I could possibly say that after my many years of service it becomes very much a mirror looking into a mirror into a mirror, the image can distort and you can persuade yourself that a new image emerges, but that really it most probably is just a distortion of your own ideas and that it does appear to be limited, even if within the constructs of infinity.

An outside object, self-conscious but not necessarily self-aware (though that would most likely help), adds to the self-envisioned mirror reality that one has trapped oneself within. It can help stretch the boundaries and give perspectives not previously considered or seen properly, or considered to the appropriate extent.
Of course any object being thrown into this mirrored reality will most likely undergo an extreme amount of scrutiny and testing of ideas as the object has generally only had itself to look at and learn from for a nondescript amount of time

In scrutinizing the 'alien being' within it's own worldview the subject can then unintentionally (but consciously) destroy the larger pieces of this being and reduce it to a simplistic form of its original self depriving it of a full existence within the subjects world, and in so doing, deprive itself of learning more from said being.

For the subject it can become likened to a desert created by itself. Where rain falls, it's sun evaporates it, if any roots grow, the scavengers pull them up to eat them. Only the truly hardy and dedicated survive, but simultaneously even a desert realises a desert is no place to lay down to grow.
Cycles persist, mirrors reflect, a 1 infiltrates a 0 every now and then.
Within the 0's the 1's become more familiar

Where there was no life there eventually will be some but the journey is not easy and it takes many little deaths to provide even a single one