Thursday, 8th August 2013

First day in the dark for a while, closed the curtain and avoid people as much as possible. Still recovering from over indulgence on Sunday, body recovering from a number of ailments, parts of my mind still a little numb or spaced.
Read Rudolph Steiner's On Fear which made a lot of sense to me, very much in my mode of thinking, 3 split worlds Physical, Soul, Spirit, how our fear and anxieties can actually have a larger impact in the spiritual world than here in the physical.
Also finished reading the biography of Jack Kerouac. Identified with him quite a lot and by the end of it was extremely saddnened and depressed that he never managed to turn himself round or find hope again. Of course many stories and people exist like that but his story seemeed to impact me more than most, possibly because of his shyness that I relate to, or the loss of hope creating something/years of failure with the odd peak of success, or the fact that his friends remind me a lot of my own friends, or the fall into alcohol as a social blanket turning into an acceptance of loss and exchange for life.
My face is also giving me issues, I've had a rash now for a year and a half, before that I had great skin, so now going to try cutting out gluten after a friend's recommendation. Fuck wheat. Why so much wheat everywhere?
The book launch of 'The Life and Loves of Jet Tea' went well yesterday. A Q&A session with the 3 main characters, a book signing session, and some music where I played a few songs myself. Seemed to go down pretty well and got offered a gig by a promoter which is always nice.
In other news: protect your heart.