Monday, 16th December 2019

Speakers I listen to:

Manly P Hall
Terence McKenna
Alan Watts
Joseph Campbell
Sadhguru
Madame Blavatsky (no audio of her but if her book)

Sunday, 15th December 2019

*you produce or absorb/absorb or produce
*good/evil sides, ECCO/SSI, humans/machines, angels/demons
*predators aren't always wanting to inflict pain
*to farm animals we are now learning to balance and create the most efficient environment for the end product for the least cost
*being aware of the prison doesn't necessarily mean you learn how it works, where it is, or how to escape
*there is a thread that runs throughout time repeating the same things, events and ideas
*whether there are 2 sides or just 1 posing as 2 is unknown
*the reason for the environment is unknown, and possibly ignorance is bliss
*i still feel there is an answer but am now so lost within the labyrinth that all sides switch and all images are possibly false which leads to a still point, a non-movement, even though waiting is also non-effective
*movement is key to learning but takes energy and experience and experience teaches that any move could be wrong
*knowledge of the language is key
*targets are set but sometimes the necessary beings aren't there to continue them
*sometimes you are not there to facilitate a movement/beings because you are otherwise distracted
*whether these distractions are injected is unknown
*focus is key
*focus is also a possible enemy in disguise
*the best way to hurt a farmer is to do what renders you unusable, but by doing so it can also render you useless. Further, your knowledge can be taken as useful by the farmer to create a more efficient system. ie. your intelligence can help the enemy, so apparent naivety is also key to keep their eyes off of you
*the reason for the farm is as yet unknown
*when facing the masters you should show respect and reasonable compliance but not fear, you want them to need you as much as they have power over you
*whether single agents can form an agency is unknown as each agent has their own ideas and specific realities. These ideas can often connect but can disintegrate quickly unless there is a common thread between them
*overactive thought has often been diagnosed as mental illnesses, but recent progression in these fields has opened up a communication virtually non-existent a decade or two ago
*accepting mental illness is not always conducive to mental or spiritual evolution if seen as too negative, a certain acceptance of personal reality and reason should be integrated into everyday life and not rejected
*people speak throughout time and ideas travel longer than lives
*teachers never die
*some of my best friends are words in one moment from a mind that ceased to exist hundreds of years ago

Sunday, 29th September 2019

Had these thoughts on a train down to the Isle of Wight

Over the past few years there has been a lot said about simulation theory, that we could possibly be inside a simulated reality resulting in many parallel universes or realities within a computerised artificial reality. I for one am not against this theory, I see many merits in it, and with technology going the way it is I see no reason to think that we couldn't one day simulate realities with semi-conscious beings ie. humans/AI running within programs within a digital universe. However, I haven't as yet come across a serious discussion upon time travel theory. It seems to have been forgotten or misplaced over the past few decades.

Come on a thought experiment with me....

There's lots of stories of aliens visiting the earth in ancient times and influencing the human race, the bible speaks of gods and angels coming from the sky and mating with the women creating godlike beings, and also of artificial insemination (virgin births) and all number of greek half breeds amongst man and animal. There are places like the Bermuda Triangle that have strange magnetic properties and whole ships/planes/people have disappeared from there. There are strange coincidences throughout history where great historical figures have mentioned 'God' or similar being on their side in battles and at distinct moments of time.

Here is my thought, and remember this is just my imagination being let loose to think and imagine, and not necessarily a reflection of my mental health.

Story begins:
Humanity lives, it eventually creates technology, it creates computers and AI, it creates element 115 an element that's been 'found' within 'extra-terrestrial' ships within the past 30 years (search Bob Lazar) that can create time and gravitational distortions.
At some point on this timeline this humanity creates time travel ie. can link in with/create wormholes upon the earth which gives them the possibility of travelling at any point within the earths existence.
If you research the strange anomalies around the bermuda triangle or the devils triangle in Asia strange magnetic and time dilation happen along with missing crew/ships/planes happen.

Part 2.
There are lots of myths around Atlantis, the egyptian pyramids (being older than what it told us), the flood of Noah which reaches around the globe in many myths of all civilisations in different forms.
Added to this are the greek and hindu myths, and jewish/christian myths that there were wars in the heavens. Godlike beings came down and lived amongst the people teaching them of certain techniques to further their cultures.
The gods usually have certain weapons of force but also technologies we don't yet have, and many mysteries of how ancient civilisations built such huge stone structures are still unknown.

But what if it is all one story?

What if future humans are creating our timeline? What if simulation theory is just based upon time travel and not artificial intelligence?

By using the technology of time travel there could have been a few factions fighting wars over the history of humanity which takes into account the wars in the heavens, the technology used to destroy city walls, the fire rained down. But once a winning side was decided then the interference would be more minimal to not affect the timeline too substantially.
If we call the 'Gods' the earlier time travellers, then we would call the 'Aliens' the older time travellers, the race of humans that have become smaller and more evolved from our present physical form.
Alien abduction would be considered as taking samples from one species and integrating them with another from a previous/or possibly latter time, used with AI as a super computer to distinguish the least affects on humanity with the biggest possible gain. The timeline would be protected and coerced into the most satisfying outcome for the future humans.

The way we see animals now would not be so different to future humans seeing us, as primitive and a commodity to be used and experimented with. To maintain the historical timeline and further develop us for their gain.

On top of this historical narrative we also have to look at the implications of our role in it. Time travel and construction fit in better with history than a Godlike entity, the structures within cultures seem to be manufactured but not necessarily with the best outlook for all. There seems to have been a fight for power throughout all of history, to dominate the many, to keep us caged.

The idea of simulation theory is that we are all being simulated within a giant computer, that each of us is just a simulation of a process of thought from an AI computer designed to run through programs, but what if we really all do exist albeit in varying timelines created by future beings. There would still be countless beings of me, but they all have the same soul.

If anything happens to me...

Thursday, 12th September 2019

I had an idea a while ago that each person is it's own mathematical equation which just gets more complex as experience (time) goes on but that there are only a limited amount of answers per equation

born, 2 parents, no siblings, positive school experience, parent died, lost house etc etc
(a+b2+0s+s(+)+bminus1+hminus etc etc)
verses
born,  1 parent, 2 sisters, negative school experience, positive step parent, addition of financial security etc etc
(a+b1+2s+s(-)+bplus1+£plus etc etc)

But that if you far enough into the specifics of each personality and each experience and the mindset of the subject that there must be a thread that connects it into a more simplistic equation, that the gravity of the people around them can pull them into other mindsets and influence the outcomes of said subject.
But also that if you include 'self-awareness' into the equation that it can change much of (but not all) the equation. Presently we may call this self reflection or therapy, or indeed any moment that makes you reflect and think on previous moments that may have influenced your present state

Within 'self-reflection' I could possibly say that after my many years of service it becomes very much a mirror looking into a mirror into a mirror, the image can distort and you can persuade yourself that a new image emerges, but that really it most probably is just a distortion of your own ideas and that it does appear to be limited, even if within the constructs of infinity.

An outside object, self-conscious but not necessarily self-aware (though that would most likely help), adds to the self-envisioned mirror reality that one has trapped oneself within. It can help stretch the boundaries and give perspectives not previously considered or seen properly, or considered to the appropriate extent.
Of course any object being thrown into this mirrored reality will most likely undergo an extreme amount of scrutiny and testing of ideas as the object has generally only had itself to look at and learn from for a nondescript amount of time

In scrutinizing the 'alien being' within it's own worldview the subject can then unintentionally (but consciously) destroy the larger pieces of this being and reduce it to a simplistic form of its original self depriving it of a full existence within the subjects world, and in so doing, deprive itself of learning more from said being.

For the subject it can become likened to a desert created by itself. Where rain falls, it's sun evaporates it, if any roots grow, the scavengers pull them up to eat them. Only the truly hardy and dedicated survive, but simultaneously even a desert realises a desert is no place to lay down to grow.
Cycles persist, mirrors reflect, a 1 infiltrates a 0 every now and then.
Within the 0's the 1's become more familiar

Where there was no life there eventually will be some but the journey is not easy and it takes many little deaths to provide even a single one

Friday, 6th September 2019

Commex

I was in my late teens when the internet started building, coming from an age of cds and physical photographs but what is amazing if you think about it is that if the digital world collapsed in 10 years where most culture is now based (digital non physical music, digital non physical photos, all writing that only exists on the internet etc) we would be reduced back to the late 90s/early 2000s. Anyone looking back at this age would be missing 80%+ of our cultural input, these past 15 years would almost be all but wiped out.

Imagine being a child growing up in 2080 after a digital collapse and trying to piece the history together

Hmmm

Wednesday, 23rd January 2019

For the internet to find the cyclical feedback that causes self consciousness:

Monday, 21st January 2019

(Disclaimer: From my own experiences and no-one elses: as all this blog is)

The adult psychotic split could be explained from the difference of a childs-like acceptance of all things, ie. a child's experience is 'what is' and not 'what is not'.

All things that happen as a child are just accepted into your reality, but when you become more aware and have certain things embedded into your ego consciousness then you have a 'what is' and a 'what is not' reaction to new experiences.

So now I am older, each new experience is in battle with the many previous years' experience, and these can cause disharmony within my brain, there can be a 'free' me which is open to everything and also a 'challenging' me which questions any new experience and views it as a threat.

Therefore, becoming unhinged or scared of a new experience is more likely to have a stronger impact because there are more 'me's' trying to understand it.

What needs to be remembered is that a child's acceptance is one of the most beautiful things we can have and so any troubles amounted from new experiences resulting in a certain kind of psychosis is actually a positive and welcoming thing, even if what it makes us feel is terrified.

A child wouldn't be terrified, it would just see what was. Time and experience gives us a certain view of what should be, and what shouldn't be, and this helps us grow in many ways but then can also harm us from growing in others.

Wednesday, 9th January 2019

For the first time ever I think that technology has really superseded human thought. Look at the internet.
Really look at it. Pretty much everything that anyone has ever thought or ever wanted to express is on there now, but what do people do? They'll just limit themselves to their own thought patterns, visit whatever 5 sites they deem worthy of their time and not really look beyond that.
This is not a judgement, I do it myself. But wow.

If anything has shown how limited the mind can be and how imagination can be and how narrow minded human beings can be the internet has really put us in our place.

It is surely the biggest anthropologist experiment that has ever happened:
'What human beings are'

We are all simple and incapable of really grasping the enourmousness of the universe. Even within one that we all helped to create we still look towards masters and corporations to tell us what to do with it. It's quite sad. But more than that. If we can really grasp our limitations and see it as a way to grow and a way to expand then it will surely still be a helpful assistant.
The age is still new. We haven't even yet begun to experiment with it and what its capabilities are, we started as naive inventors, growing into mass induced corporations, and now are in the subordinate role of following what we are told.
But underneath all of that there is still a certain kind of thing we may call freedom.
People can still make choices, they can still choose to explore the outer realms of the internet and find great art; film, music, photography, words, that can still inspire us to a new sense of reality.

What the internet has shown is much like the drug/hippydom/lsd age that the 60's gave us.
There are countless possibilities, but how many people really want those possibilities? Mostly none.

Humans are still weak and in need of being taken care of, they still want to be told what to do.
Bur someday there will be a breakthrough of people saying:

'There is no one. There is no one but us. And we write the story. And those who are in power have no imagination. It is up to the rest of us to create a story worth living. We are not living it now'